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Chapter V.—Mattidia Wishes to Be Baptized.
When she heard this, she said: “What,
then, prevents me from being baptized this day? for before I saw you I
turned away from the so-called gods, induced by the thought that,
though I sacrificed much to them almost every day, they did not aid me
in my necessities. And with regard to adultery, what need I say?
for not even when I was rich was I betrayed into this sin by luxury,
and the poverty which succeeded has been unable to force me into it,
since I cling to my chastity as constituting the greatest
beauty,1163
1163 One
ms. and the first Epitome read,
“as being the greatest blessing.” | on account of
which I fell into so great distress. But I do not at all imagine
that you, my lord Peter, are ignorant that the greatest
temptation1164 arises when
everything looks bright. And therefore, if I was chaste in my
prosperity, I do not in my despondency give myself up to
pleasures. Yea, indeed, you are not to suppose that my soul has
now been freed from distress, although it has received some measure of
consolation by the recognition of Clement. For the gloom which I
feel in consequence of the loss of my two children rushes in upon me,
and throws its shadow to some extent over my joy; for I am grieved, not
so much because they perished in the sea, but because they were
destroyed, both soul and body, without possessing true1165
1165 The Greek has,
“apart from divine piety towards God.” As Wieseler
remarks, the epithet “divine” is corrupt. The meaning
may be, “without having known the proper mode of worshipping
God.” | piety towards God. Moreover, my
husband, their father, as I have learned from Clement, went away in
search of me and his sons, and for so many years has not been heard of;
and, without doubt, he must have died. For the miserable man,
loving me as he did in chastity, was fond of his children; and
therefore the old man, deprived of all of us who were dear to him above
everything else, died utterly broken-hearted.”
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