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Chapter XL.—The Only Safe
Resting-Place for the Soul is to Be Found in God.
65. Where hast Thou not accompanied me, O
Truth,966
966 See xii. sec. 35, below. | teaching me
both what to avoid and what to desire, when I submitted to Thee
what I could perceive of sublunary things, and asked Thy counsel?
With my external senses, as I could, I viewed the world, and noted
the life which my body derives from me, and these my senses. Thence
I advanced inwardly into the recesses of my memory,—the manifold
rooms, wondrously full of multitudinous wealth; and I considered
and was afraid, and could discern none of these things without
Thee, and found none of them to be Thee. Nor was I myself the
discoverer of these things,—I, who went over them all, and
laboured to distinguish and to value everything according to its
dignity, accepting some things upon the report of my senses, and
questioning about others which I felt to be mixed up with myself,
distinguishing and numbering the reporters themselves, and in the
vast storehouse of my memory investigating some things, laying up
others, taking out others. Neither was I myself when I did this
(that is, that ability of mine whereby I did it), nor was it Thou,
for Thou art that never-failing light which I took counsel of as to
them all, whether they were what they were, and what was their
worth; and I heard Thee teaching and commanding me. And this I do
often; this is a delight to me, and, as far as I can get relief
from necessary duties, to this gratification do I resort. Nor in
all these which I review when consulting Thee, find I a secure
place for my soul, save in Thee, into whom my scattered members may
be gathered together, and nothing of me depart from Thee.967
967 See ix. sec. 10, note, above, and xi. sec. 39,
below. | And
sometimes Thou dost introduce me to a most rare affection,
inwardly, to an inexplicable sweetness, which, if it should be
perfected in me, I know not to what point that life might not
arrive. But by these wretched weights968 of mine do I relapse into these
things, and am sucked in by my old customs, and am held, and sorrow
much, yet am much held. To such an extent does the burden of habit
press us down. In this way I can be, but will not; in that I will,
but cannot,—on both ways miserable.
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